
haven't had much time this week to keep things moving forward but i have managed to get most of the set for scene 2 modeled. This still needs a lot of texture and lighting work but that can come later.
in college i spent much of my summers traveling. i had a 22' travel trailer and a dog named jasper. we'd go out in some direction and find a town to stay at for a day or a week. i'd shoot every day and jasper would follow.
the summer this was made we covered about 5000 miles through idaho, montana and wyoming.
the last portrait of the two of us
jeanna was on o2 most of the time
she labored for 15 hours with henry. her labor stalled early on. the doctors administered pitosin about 8 hours in...
i cannot imagine the emotion a mother faces when meeting her child for the first time.
but i can relate to the feeling as the adrenaline begins to wear off and terror takes hold. what the fuck did we do? how will we ever care for him? i think this realization still haunts me.
henry is 7 1/2 years old now. i am struggling as a father — struggling to understand my role in his life and how to raise him. it was easier when he was a baby... i could swaddle him.
last year i had some pieces in the seattle erotic arts festival. it was a juried exhibition and a lot of fun to be a part of. msnbc did an article and showed a guy looking at two of my pieces (mine are the two framed in black). the slideshow shows the third piece.
i'm turning 35 this sunday. to be honest, no birthday prior (and perhaps no birthday after) will be quite as profound as this one. i feel my age, though i haven't quite gotten around to living up to it. life passes so quickly when you measure years in relation to your children.
i feel the need to hit the reset button. i'm not talking about finding a 22 year old and buying a sports car... more like drive a city bus and make pictures.
as an ad man, i guess it would be hypocritical of me to voice my distaste for commercial photography. i did it for a number of years — printers, fashion, product v.r., architectural and the likes. it was never really fulfilling... perhaps because i never got very good at it.
now i'm that fucking art director that i always hated working with. what is the old saying about those who cannot do?